1 00:00:36,139 --> 00:00:37,140 Hey Tommy. 2 00:01:46,899 --> 00:01:47,969 Nightmares? 3 00:01:48,832 --> 00:01:50,593 Visitations, maybe. 4 00:01:52,491 --> 00:01:54,390 Who was it this time? 5 00:01:55,770 --> 00:01:57,427 I think Sebastian. 6 00:01:58,601 --> 00:01:59,740 I like him. 7 00:02:01,466 --> 00:02:02,294 Morning. 8 00:02:03,847 --> 00:02:04,814 Morning. 9 00:02:04,814 --> 00:02:06,643 There's eggs. 10 00:02:06,643 --> 00:02:07,610 Yeah. 11 00:02:07,610 --> 00:02:08,852 He seemed nice. 12 00:02:08,852 --> 00:02:11,338 He did speak Italian in the dream, but. 13 00:02:42,300 --> 00:02:45,061 The terror you inspire and the pride of your heart 14 00:02:45,061 --> 00:02:47,339 have deceived you. 15 00:02:47,339 --> 00:02:50,722 You who live in the clefts of the rock, 16 00:02:50,722 --> 00:02:52,689 who hold the height of the hill. 17 00:02:52,689 --> 00:02:54,174 Although you make your nest 18 00:02:54,174 --> 00:02:56,762 as high as the eagles. 19 00:02:56,762 --> 00:02:59,662 From there, I will bring you down. 20 00:03:02,285 --> 00:03:03,873 So sayeth the Lord. 21 00:03:06,772 --> 00:03:09,292 We talk about the end of times. 22 00:03:09,292 --> 00:03:11,260 We talk about global warming, 23 00:03:11,260 --> 00:03:12,675 the fiscal cliff, 24 00:03:12,675 --> 00:03:15,919 all kinds of scary things to keep us afraid. 25 00:03:15,919 --> 00:03:18,232 We do not need to be afraid. 26 00:03:19,785 --> 00:03:21,684 We need to trust in the Lord, 27 00:03:21,684 --> 00:03:24,307 and we need to know that in our hearts, 28 00:03:24,307 --> 00:03:28,484 we strive to find a place for us in his good grace. 29 00:03:31,245 --> 00:03:35,111 We need to find a place of peace in ourselves, 30 00:03:36,388 --> 00:03:40,323 and not be distracted by the ways of the world. 31 00:03:41,738 --> 00:03:44,776 Forgive me Father, for I have sinned. 32 00:03:44,776 --> 00:03:47,917 It's been 51 years since my last confession. 33 00:03:47,917 --> 00:03:49,574 51? 34 00:03:49,574 --> 00:03:51,783 I'm rounding up. 35 00:03:51,783 --> 00:03:56,615 Last thing I wanna do is stretch the truth at this point. 36 00:03:56,615 --> 00:03:58,514 What's kept you? 37 00:03:58,514 --> 00:04:00,378 Nothing in particular. 38 00:04:00,378 --> 00:04:02,656 I made a deal with God. 39 00:04:02,656 --> 00:04:04,278 Okay. 40 00:04:04,278 --> 00:04:05,245 I'm gonna bite. 41 00:04:05,245 --> 00:04:06,384 What was the nature of the deal? 42 00:04:06,384 --> 00:04:08,006 That I wouldn't trouble Him. 43 00:04:08,006 --> 00:04:11,354 Unburdening my soul every week, 44 00:04:11,354 --> 00:04:14,184 year in year out like a busybody. 45 00:04:14,184 --> 00:04:16,117 That I would save it up and when it mattered, 46 00:04:16,117 --> 00:04:19,466 I would come in and get the job done, efficiently. 47 00:04:19,466 --> 00:04:20,294 Hm. 48 00:04:21,261 --> 00:04:23,124 God agreed to this? 49 00:04:23,124 --> 00:04:25,092 I had him over a barrel at the time. 50 00:04:25,092 --> 00:04:28,406 You musta caught him on a weekday. 51 00:04:28,406 --> 00:04:31,512 I didn't know you were allowed to joke. 52 00:04:31,512 --> 00:04:33,134 Well, a lot's changed in 51 years. 53 00:04:33,134 --> 00:04:34,170 Oh yes. 54 00:04:34,170 --> 00:04:36,310 Heard about meat on Friday. 55 00:04:36,310 --> 00:04:37,622 Was, 56 00:04:37,622 --> 00:04:39,796 was there a falling out? 57 00:04:39,796 --> 00:04:40,728 With God? 58 00:04:40,728 --> 00:04:41,557 Mm hm. 59 00:04:41,557 --> 00:04:43,179 No. 60 00:04:43,179 --> 00:04:44,318 Not with God. 61 00:04:44,318 --> 00:04:46,872 I wanted some self-determination. 62 00:04:46,872 --> 00:04:48,046 Look, 63 00:04:48,046 --> 00:04:50,290 I don't think it matters why I stopped 64 00:04:50,290 --> 00:04:51,912 coming to weekly penance, 65 00:04:51,912 --> 00:04:54,639 the fact is that I did and that I'm here now. 66 00:04:54,639 --> 00:04:56,537 Seeking absolution. 67 00:04:56,537 --> 00:04:58,539 Oh, let's get started. 68 00:05:00,955 --> 00:05:02,302 Well, I um ... 69 00:05:03,958 --> 00:05:06,582 I certainly planted two different crops, 70 00:05:06,582 --> 00:05:07,686 side by side. 71 00:05:08,860 --> 00:05:10,931 I couldn't avoid that, it was a small plot. 72 00:05:10,931 --> 00:05:13,140 That is understandable. 73 00:05:13,140 --> 00:05:15,970 I touched the skin of a dead pig 74 00:05:16,833 --> 00:05:18,939 on a fair number of occasions. 75 00:05:18,939 --> 00:05:22,287 But I had two boys, they loved football. 76 00:05:24,462 --> 00:05:26,326 You know, you do seem to be focused 77 00:05:26,326 --> 00:05:28,914 on the more obscure, Biblical sins. 78 00:05:28,914 --> 00:05:31,020 I'm just getting started, Father. 79 00:05:31,020 --> 00:05:32,677 They do get juicier. 80 00:05:34,126 --> 00:05:36,543 I had sex while on my period, 81 00:05:38,199 --> 00:05:39,684 and with a condom. 82 00:05:41,410 --> 00:05:45,414 I was on the pill for 12 years, on and off. 83 00:05:45,414 --> 00:05:46,553 But those things, you know, 84 00:05:46,553 --> 00:05:49,141 I don't honestly feel penitent. 85 00:05:50,419 --> 00:05:54,215 I don't honestly feel penitent about sex. 86 00:05:54,215 --> 00:05:55,389 The fact is I had 87 00:05:55,389 --> 00:05:56,977 a lot of it, 88 00:05:56,977 --> 00:05:59,635 with whomever I wanted, 89 00:05:59,635 --> 00:06:02,327 and sometimes just for something to do. 90 00:06:02,327 --> 00:06:03,639 It was the '70s. 91 00:06:04,950 --> 00:06:06,227 I never cheated on-- 92 00:06:06,227 --> 00:06:08,609 Well, I did cheat on somebody once. 93 00:06:08,609 --> 00:06:10,231 For that, I am sorry, 94 00:06:10,231 --> 00:06:11,612 because it hurt him. 95 00:06:11,612 --> 00:06:13,234 Well, not terribly, but it did hurt him, 96 00:06:13,234 --> 00:06:17,100 and I would like to be absolved for that. 97 00:06:17,100 --> 00:06:18,930 Were you married? 98 00:06:18,930 --> 00:06:21,898 Yes, but that's not whom I cheated on. 99 00:06:21,898 --> 00:06:25,143 Which I suppose brings me to the divorce. 100 00:06:25,143 --> 00:06:27,076 Had to be done, but ... 101 00:06:28,249 --> 00:06:30,735 Well, it's a sin and I confess it. 102 00:06:34,186 --> 00:06:36,016 If you're not 103 00:06:36,016 --> 00:06:37,362 genuinely sorry, 104 00:06:38,605 --> 00:06:40,814 my blessing is not going to absolve you. 105 00:06:40,814 --> 00:06:43,230 But you will absolve me. 106 00:06:43,230 --> 00:06:44,714 You will bless me. 107 00:06:46,302 --> 00:06:47,545 I will offer you the blessing. 108 00:06:47,545 --> 00:06:49,616 I'll pray for you but ... 109 00:06:51,790 --> 00:06:52,619 Hm. 110 00:06:58,314 --> 00:07:02,422 I gave my kids' dog to a bide awhile shelter, 111 00:07:02,422 --> 00:07:05,908 and told them it went to a farm. 112 00:07:05,908 --> 00:07:07,944 I lied all the time. 113 00:07:07,944 --> 00:07:09,221 Oh, how I lied. 114 00:07:11,120 --> 00:07:14,157 Almost always to protect other people's feelings. 115 00:07:14,157 --> 00:07:15,504 You look good. 116 00:07:15,504 --> 00:07:18,092 That's a nice haircut. 117 00:07:18,092 --> 00:07:19,473 That type of thing. 118 00:07:19,473 --> 00:07:22,442 Oh, I really enjoyed your book. 119 00:07:22,442 --> 00:07:25,755 Personally, I don't know many great authors, 120 00:07:25,755 --> 00:07:27,792 but I do know a lot of the self-published type, 121 00:07:27,792 --> 00:07:29,656 and what do you say? 122 00:07:29,656 --> 00:07:30,484 You lie. 123 00:07:31,830 --> 00:07:34,799 It's the only reasonable thing. 124 00:07:34,799 --> 00:07:36,628 You still don't sound sorry. 125 00:07:36,628 --> 00:07:38,250 Well, I am for that. 126 00:07:38,250 --> 00:07:39,459 Wish I'd had the nerve 127 00:07:39,459 --> 00:07:41,771 to tell them they were shitty writers. 128 00:07:41,771 --> 00:07:42,669 Forgive me. 129 00:07:43,773 --> 00:07:46,742 That they were wasting their time, 130 00:07:46,742 --> 00:07:48,606 and other people's, 131 00:07:48,606 --> 00:07:49,779 and the trees. 132 00:07:51,160 --> 00:07:54,404 That's not the same thing as being sorry to God. 133 00:07:54,404 --> 00:07:56,027 Right, I think that your grace is what 134 00:07:56,027 --> 00:07:57,511 we should be talking about here. 135 00:07:57,511 --> 00:07:58,788 Your relationship with God. 136 00:07:58,788 --> 00:08:00,549 I have a lot of ground to cover, Father. 137 00:08:00,549 --> 00:08:01,998 Maybe you need to forgive God, 138 00:08:01,998 --> 00:08:03,966 before you're ready to be forgiven. 139 00:08:03,966 --> 00:08:05,139 That's blasphemy. 140 00:08:05,139 --> 00:08:06,520 No, I don't think so. 141 00:08:06,520 --> 00:08:09,868 You made a deal to abandon God for 50 years, 142 00:08:09,868 --> 00:08:12,353 but God, he would never make that deal. 143 00:08:12,353 --> 00:08:13,907 The only thing I'm saying is that I don't think 144 00:08:13,907 --> 00:08:16,150 you're going to feel any healing benefit of absolution 145 00:08:16,150 --> 00:08:18,221 while you remain angry. 146 00:08:18,221 --> 00:08:19,947 Who says I'm angry? 147 00:08:21,328 --> 00:08:22,605 You're distant from God, 148 00:08:22,605 --> 00:08:25,643 and you're not here to become any closer. 149 00:08:25,643 --> 00:08:29,819 I came here to confess and you're not letting me. 150 00:08:31,372 --> 00:08:32,373 You were hurt, 151 00:08:32,373 --> 00:08:33,271 and then you made your deal, 152 00:08:33,271 --> 00:08:34,859 so who hurt you? 153 00:08:34,859 --> 00:08:35,653 God? 154 00:08:36,826 --> 00:08:38,932 God hurts everyone. 155 00:08:38,932 --> 00:08:42,901 I was never so naive as to think I'd be different. 156 00:08:42,901 --> 00:08:43,902 Then, who? 157 00:08:46,802 --> 00:08:48,493 I had an abortion. 158 00:08:50,530 --> 00:08:52,428 Are you sorry for that? 159 00:08:52,428 --> 00:08:53,256 No. 160 00:08:55,396 --> 00:08:57,709 It's a serious mortal sin. 161 00:08:59,469 --> 00:09:01,402 What's your name? 162 00:09:01,402 --> 00:09:03,301 Bookie, I'm called. 163 00:09:03,301 --> 00:09:06,062 I was a librarian for some years. 164 00:09:07,132 --> 00:09:10,653 Much of it on Sundays, that's a sin. 165 00:09:10,653 --> 00:09:11,516 Bookie. 166 00:09:13,173 --> 00:09:14,657 An abortion is a mortal sin. 167 00:09:14,657 --> 00:09:15,520 For you to 168 00:09:16,625 --> 00:09:17,487 confess it 169 00:09:18,558 --> 00:09:20,007 and not feel penitent, 170 00:09:20,007 --> 00:09:23,010 I feel like you are trying to cheat. 171 00:09:24,909 --> 00:09:27,152 You think this is easy for me, Father? 172 00:09:27,152 --> 00:09:28,568 They're my sins. 173 00:09:28,568 --> 00:09:31,225 But isn't it the easy way? 174 00:09:31,225 --> 00:09:32,675 To come in, confess, 175 00:09:32,675 --> 00:09:34,643 once in a lifetime? 176 00:09:34,643 --> 00:09:35,885 You save everything up, 177 00:09:35,885 --> 00:09:36,990 you spend a few minutes, 178 00:09:36,990 --> 00:09:38,232 you get absolution, 179 00:09:38,232 --> 00:09:41,132 you wouldn't consider that to be cheating? 180 00:09:41,132 --> 00:09:42,616 Technically, no. 181 00:09:43,583 --> 00:09:44,963 What's happened to you? 182 00:09:44,963 --> 00:09:46,206 What? 183 00:09:46,206 --> 00:09:47,966 To make you come in and confess now. 184 00:09:47,966 --> 00:09:49,554 You said that you were saving it up until it was, 185 00:09:49,554 --> 00:09:52,074 until it was necessary. 186 00:09:52,074 --> 00:09:53,040 Mattered. 187 00:09:53,040 --> 00:09:54,904 Until it mattered, I said. 188 00:09:54,904 --> 00:09:57,182 It always mattered. 189 00:09:57,182 --> 00:09:58,252 What changed? 190 00:10:01,946 --> 00:10:03,810 I have a daughter I don't speak to. 191 00:10:03,810 --> 00:10:05,328 That's a sin. 192 00:10:05,328 --> 00:10:07,537 Why don't you speak to her? 193 00:10:07,537 --> 00:10:09,505 It's a long story. 194 00:10:09,505 --> 00:10:10,817 I need to know. 195 00:10:10,817 --> 00:10:13,440 You're not my therapist, Father. 196 00:10:13,440 --> 00:10:15,856 I don't need you to deconstruct my relationship 197 00:10:15,856 --> 00:10:18,479 with my daughter, or to fix it. 198 00:10:19,688 --> 00:10:21,137 Not talking to your daughter is only a sin 199 00:10:21,137 --> 00:10:23,243 if it's done with malice. 200 00:10:24,624 --> 00:10:27,696 There may very well be mitigating circumstances. 201 00:10:27,696 --> 00:10:29,283 Maybe she hurt you. 202 00:10:30,457 --> 00:10:31,734 Maybe she takes advantage of you, 203 00:10:31,734 --> 00:10:33,529 or she threatens you. 204 00:10:35,669 --> 00:10:37,844 She's willful and cruel. 205 00:10:39,086 --> 00:10:42,642 She's always raging on about something. 206 00:10:42,642 --> 00:10:44,229 She used to be an addict, 207 00:10:44,229 --> 00:10:46,059 I know this. 208 00:10:46,059 --> 00:10:48,095 I was enabling her with money. 209 00:10:48,095 --> 00:10:49,372 That's what Al anon said, 210 00:10:49,372 --> 00:10:52,065 that I had to stop enabling her with money. 211 00:10:52,065 --> 00:10:54,654 This was the only way I could do it. 212 00:10:54,654 --> 00:10:56,759 I can't say no when I see her. 213 00:10:56,759 --> 00:10:58,450 When I see her face. 214 00:11:00,176 --> 00:11:01,833 So, I don't see her. 215 00:11:03,593 --> 00:11:05,595 Well see, that's a mitigating circumstance. 216 00:11:05,595 --> 00:11:07,459 So, not a sin? 217 00:11:07,459 --> 00:11:09,979 I'm not sure that it is. 218 00:11:09,979 --> 00:11:14,087 Well I'd rather err on the side of a few extra Hail Marys. 219 00:11:14,087 --> 00:11:15,260 Fair enough. 220 00:11:17,228 --> 00:11:19,886 This is so different than when I was a girl. 221 00:11:19,886 --> 00:11:22,198 The priests were so intimidating. 222 00:11:22,198 --> 00:11:23,752 I can be intimidating. 223 00:11:23,752 --> 00:11:25,167 Oh, I'm sure. 224 00:11:25,167 --> 00:11:27,169 Well, I'm working on it. 225 00:11:27,169 --> 00:11:29,447 Why would you do this? 226 00:11:29,447 --> 00:11:31,760 You seem an unlikely priest. 227 00:11:32,933 --> 00:11:35,971 You don't seem dogmatic or sure. 228 00:11:35,971 --> 00:11:37,524 You're not even certain. 229 00:11:37,524 --> 00:11:41,217 I seem to know more about what's a sin than you do. 230 00:11:41,217 --> 00:11:43,564 You have certainly committed more of them. 231 00:11:43,564 --> 00:11:46,706 Well, I've had a lot more time. 232 00:11:46,706 --> 00:11:50,537 I've done all the seven deadly sins. 233 00:11:50,537 --> 00:11:53,264 You're gonna need to be more specific than that. 234 00:11:53,264 --> 00:11:54,886 All right. 235 00:11:54,886 --> 00:11:56,405 The divorce, I ... 236 00:11:57,509 --> 00:11:58,614 I was greedy. 237 00:11:59,753 --> 00:12:03,274 I wanted the apartment and the money. 238 00:12:03,274 --> 00:12:06,346 I was wrathful toward my mother. 239 00:12:06,346 --> 00:12:10,522 Avoiding her and then belittling her when I did see her. 240 00:12:12,076 --> 00:12:14,112 I was envious of my sister's marriage. 241 00:12:14,112 --> 00:12:17,184 So much so that I caused it problems. 242 00:12:18,496 --> 00:12:20,360 Gluttony well, 243 00:12:20,360 --> 00:12:21,810 not so bad, 244 00:12:21,810 --> 00:12:25,814 but I'm always next to the cheese plate in a party photo. 245 00:12:25,814 --> 00:12:28,161 Well, maybe the way that you approached your divorce 246 00:12:28,161 --> 00:12:28,989 was wrath, 247 00:12:30,750 --> 00:12:34,374 and those cheese plate photos are vanity. 248 00:12:34,374 --> 00:12:36,756 Everybody looks better next to a plate of cheese. 249 00:12:39,448 --> 00:12:41,312 You remind me of my son. 250 00:12:41,312 --> 00:12:44,384 Such an appreciation for the absurd. 251 00:12:44,384 --> 00:12:47,559 I can see where he gets it. 252 00:12:47,559 --> 00:12:50,183 Do you believe in all this? 253 00:12:50,183 --> 00:12:52,185 Heaven, Hell, Purgatory, 254 00:12:53,496 --> 00:12:54,394 Sacraments? 255 00:12:55,395 --> 00:12:57,984 I believe in the soul. 256 00:12:57,984 --> 00:12:58,950 I do, 257 00:12:58,950 --> 00:13:01,642 I believe in God's kingdom, yes. 258 00:13:03,472 --> 00:13:06,440 It was a third trimester abortion. 259 00:13:09,754 --> 00:13:11,238 Either the baby was going to die, 260 00:13:11,238 --> 00:13:12,584 or we both were. 261 00:13:14,517 --> 00:13:15,829 I named him Gus. 262 00:13:17,451 --> 00:13:18,556 I'm sorry. 263 00:13:18,556 --> 00:13:19,799 You're sorry? 264 00:13:21,007 --> 00:13:22,871 It's a terrible loss. 265 00:13:22,871 --> 00:13:24,838 Terrible sin, is what you're supposed to say. 266 00:13:24,838 --> 00:13:26,702 That's what they said at the time. 267 00:13:26,702 --> 00:13:28,808 Is this the reason that you left the Church? 268 00:13:28,808 --> 00:13:29,912 The Church, 269 00:13:29,912 --> 00:13:30,810 my marriage, 270 00:13:30,810 --> 00:13:33,433 my family, most of them. 271 00:13:33,433 --> 00:13:35,607 The Church said it would be better for me to die, 272 00:13:35,607 --> 00:13:37,782 than to kill my child. 273 00:13:37,782 --> 00:13:38,610 In so many words? 274 00:13:38,610 --> 00:13:40,647 In a lot of words. 275 00:13:40,647 --> 00:13:42,166 That's what they meant. 276 00:13:42,166 --> 00:13:44,685 As if any living creature would just let itself die, 277 00:13:44,685 --> 00:13:47,654 just let itself die when the cure for it's illness 278 00:13:47,654 --> 00:13:49,138 was readily apparent, 279 00:13:49,138 --> 00:13:51,382 and on an outpatient basis. 280 00:13:52,590 --> 00:13:54,661 That's what Christ did. 281 00:13:55,558 --> 00:13:57,008 Look I'm not saying, 282 00:13:57,008 --> 00:13:58,354 that it's what you should've done, 283 00:13:58,354 --> 00:14:01,841 but Christ, he allowed himself to die. 284 00:14:01,841 --> 00:14:03,808 That's a basic tenet of the faith. 285 00:14:03,808 --> 00:14:06,328 If, if there were complicated discussions regarding the 286 00:14:06,328 --> 00:14:08,123 ethics of your situation-- 287 00:14:08,123 --> 00:14:09,607 Christ did not let himself die, 288 00:14:09,607 --> 00:14:11,436 he was killed by other people. 289 00:14:11,436 --> 00:14:13,680 So that others might have God. 290 00:14:13,680 --> 00:14:16,372 Well my ruptured fallopian tube was not going to give 291 00:14:16,372 --> 00:14:18,098 anybody God. 292 00:14:18,098 --> 00:14:19,030 You felt judged. 293 00:14:19,030 --> 00:14:20,273 I was judged. 294 00:14:21,515 --> 00:14:24,691 There was nothing else you could do. 295 00:14:29,696 --> 00:14:32,561 I never felt so worthless. 296 00:14:32,561 --> 00:14:34,666 I thought, this is what I'm worth to my Church, 297 00:14:34,666 --> 00:14:36,220 to my priest. 298 00:14:36,220 --> 00:14:37,497 Do nothing. 299 00:14:37,497 --> 00:14:39,188 Leave it to God. 300 00:14:39,188 --> 00:14:40,017 Die. 301 00:14:41,156 --> 00:14:42,122 Worthless. 302 00:14:42,122 --> 00:14:43,434 It was a different time. 303 00:14:43,434 --> 00:14:44,538 People understood less. 304 00:14:44,538 --> 00:14:45,815 The science was much-- 305 00:14:45,815 --> 00:14:47,679 Well, you're very nice but, this was-- 306 00:14:47,679 --> 00:14:50,441 Did they excommunicate you? 307 00:14:50,441 --> 00:14:51,683 No. 308 00:14:51,683 --> 00:14:54,548 Well that would've been the standard. 309 00:14:54,548 --> 00:14:55,929 Anybody choosing an abortion, 310 00:14:55,929 --> 00:14:57,620 they would have been excommunicated, 311 00:14:57,620 --> 00:15:01,038 and only absolved by the Bishop. 312 00:15:01,038 --> 00:15:02,453 I didn't know that. 313 00:15:02,453 --> 00:15:03,281 Maybe, 314 00:15:05,042 --> 00:15:07,734 he was more sympathetic than you thought. 315 00:15:07,734 --> 00:15:08,977 Maybe he was. 316 00:15:10,910 --> 00:15:12,912 I excommunicated myself. 317 00:15:14,120 --> 00:15:16,639 You are always welcome here. 318 00:15:18,676 --> 00:15:19,919 At the rate we're going, 319 00:15:19,919 --> 00:15:21,368 I'm going to have to come back 10 times, 320 00:15:21,368 --> 00:15:24,026 just to get through all my sins. 321 00:15:24,026 --> 00:15:25,614 If you're lucky. 322 00:15:25,614 --> 00:15:28,237 I have nothing better to do. 323 00:15:28,237 --> 00:15:29,618 I feel better, you know? 324 00:15:29,618 --> 00:15:30,895 Talking to you. 325 00:15:34,174 --> 00:15:35,175 Well, we've gotten this far, 326 00:15:35,175 --> 00:15:37,039 shall we do it? 327 00:15:37,039 --> 00:15:37,937 Absolve me. 328 00:15:41,250 --> 00:15:44,909 Maybe since you've saved it all up for so long, 329 00:15:44,909 --> 00:15:46,807 why don't we save the absolution, 330 00:15:46,807 --> 00:15:49,327 until you tell me everything? 331 00:15:49,327 --> 00:15:52,227 I'm on a schedule here, Father. 332 00:15:52,227 --> 00:15:54,436 I want to make sure I get credit. 333 00:15:54,436 --> 00:15:55,678 What schedule? 334 00:15:55,678 --> 00:15:57,266 It's not precise. 335 00:15:58,992 --> 00:16:01,753 They must've given you an idea. 336 00:16:03,307 --> 00:16:04,308 A prognosis? 337 00:16:13,696 --> 00:16:15,043 You told me that you were gonna save it all up 338 00:16:15,043 --> 00:16:17,321 until it mattered. 339 00:16:17,321 --> 00:16:19,426 I really can't think of anything that that would mean, 340 00:16:19,426 --> 00:16:20,980 except that you're, 341 00:16:22,360 --> 00:16:24,224 you're gonna die. 342 00:16:24,224 --> 00:16:27,400 You want absolution before it happens. 343 00:16:31,714 --> 00:16:33,026 Not long. 344 00:16:33,026 --> 00:16:33,889 Weeks, 345 00:16:33,889 --> 00:16:34,717 months. 346 00:16:35,995 --> 00:16:37,548 What is it? 347 00:16:37,548 --> 00:16:40,137 The thing that's killing me is not a sin this time. 348 00:16:40,137 --> 00:16:43,381 There is no sin I can commit to save myself, 349 00:16:43,381 --> 00:16:45,280 or I would, believe me. 350 00:16:52,252 --> 00:16:54,358 God, Father of Mercies. 351 00:16:54,358 --> 00:16:56,498 Through the death and the resurrection of your son, 352 00:16:56,498 --> 00:17:00,433 Jesus Christ, you have reconciled yourself to the world. 353 00:17:00,433 --> 00:17:02,021 You have sent the Holy Spirit among us 354 00:17:02,021 --> 00:17:04,368 for the forgiveness of sins. 355 00:17:06,059 --> 00:17:07,543 Through the ministry of the Church, 356 00:17:07,543 --> 00:17:09,649 may the Lord grant you pardon and peace, 357 00:17:09,649 --> 00:17:12,272 and I absolve you of your sins. 358 00:17:12,272 --> 00:17:13,791 In the name of the Father, 359 00:17:13,791 --> 00:17:15,034 and of the Son, 360 00:17:15,034 --> 00:17:16,966 and of the Holy Spirit, 361 00:17:16,966 --> 00:17:18,830 Amen. 362 00:17:20,487 --> 00:17:21,316 Thank you. 363 00:17:22,317 --> 00:17:23,732 You're welcome. 364 00:17:25,803 --> 00:17:26,735 That's it? 365 00:17:26,735 --> 00:17:28,150 No penance? 366 00:17:28,150 --> 00:17:29,600 Your penance? 367 00:17:29,600 --> 00:17:32,913 Just to come back and finish and tell. 368 00:17:32,913 --> 00:17:34,674 We just touched the tip of the proverbial sin iceberg 369 00:17:34,674 --> 00:17:35,985 with you. 370 00:17:35,985 --> 00:17:37,366 You got some good highlights. 371 00:17:37,366 --> 00:17:38,643 Hm. 372 00:17:38,643 --> 00:17:39,437 I did. 373 00:17:40,852 --> 00:17:43,062 Look, I feel that I could 374 00:17:43,062 --> 00:17:45,616 probably be doing a little bit more here to help you. 375 00:17:45,616 --> 00:17:46,651 Do you want help? 376 00:17:46,651 --> 00:17:48,136 We've got lots of volunteers. 377 00:17:48,136 --> 00:17:50,034 They can come and cook and clean. 378 00:17:50,034 --> 00:17:51,000 They'd talk to your family-- 379 00:17:51,000 --> 00:17:52,209 Oh no no. 380 00:17:52,209 --> 00:17:55,419 I don't want them to know I even came here. 381 00:17:55,419 --> 00:17:57,386 Is your relationship with Christ an illicit one? 382 00:17:57,386 --> 00:17:58,663 More or less. 383 00:18:00,631 --> 00:18:02,460 I look forward to seeing you again. 384 00:18:02,460 --> 00:18:03,668 If I can. 385 00:18:03,668 --> 00:18:04,497 You can. 386 00:18:07,672 --> 00:18:08,880 Good afternoon, Father. 387 00:18:08,880 --> 00:18:10,365 God be with you. 388 00:18:13,540 --> 00:18:15,059 You remember the response? 389 00:18:15,059 --> 00:18:15,887 I do. 390 00:18:29,660 --> 00:18:33,422 Were you waiting to make a confession? 391 00:18:33,422 --> 00:18:36,149 You don't recognize me, do you? 392 00:18:37,702 --> 00:18:39,773 Your voice is the same. 393 00:18:43,191 --> 00:18:44,364 You look good. 394 00:18:47,126 --> 00:18:48,092 Just so we're clear though, 395 00:18:48,092 --> 00:18:49,956 I am taken now. 396 00:18:49,956 --> 00:18:51,613 Married to Christ. 397 00:18:54,719 --> 00:18:56,273 That's just nuns. 398 00:19:19,399 --> 00:19:21,263 Visiting with your cousin? 399 00:19:21,263 --> 00:19:23,023 Titty bella ... 400 00:19:23,023 --> 00:19:24,024 Titabelle. 401 00:19:25,612 --> 00:19:26,889 It's Titabelle. 402 00:19:28,339 --> 00:19:29,651 I didn't know if she still lived around here, 403 00:19:29,651 --> 00:19:31,135 I haven't seen her. 404 00:19:31,135 --> 00:19:35,519 Yeah well, none of my family ever came back to Church, 405 00:19:35,519 --> 00:19:36,934 after what I did. 406 00:19:39,316 --> 00:19:40,489 They should. 407 00:19:41,801 --> 00:19:43,630 They don't like you. 408 00:19:48,635 --> 00:19:51,259 Actually, I came to see you, 409 00:19:51,259 --> 00:19:52,432 not Titabelle. 410 00:19:54,538 --> 00:19:56,954 I need to show you something. 411 00:20:01,441 --> 00:20:02,960 I have a daughter. 412 00:20:07,309 --> 00:20:08,172 Hm. 413 00:20:09,449 --> 00:20:10,761 She's beautiful. 414 00:20:12,314 --> 00:20:13,902 She looks like you. 415 00:20:28,848 --> 00:20:30,332 Did you lie to me? 416 00:20:32,196 --> 00:20:33,922 I knew you didn't love me, 417 00:20:33,922 --> 00:20:38,098 but at least I loved you enough to not ruin your life. 418 00:20:46,314 --> 00:20:49,144 You call this not ruining my life? 419 00:20:49,144 --> 00:20:50,697 When I was new here, 420 00:20:50,697 --> 00:20:52,112 just arrived, 421 00:20:52,112 --> 00:20:53,769 I was very different. 422 00:20:53,769 --> 00:20:56,324 Nobody saw me as the girl that I felt like on the inside, 423 00:20:56,324 --> 00:20:57,877 but you came around. 424 00:20:57,877 --> 00:21:01,052 You were handsome and kind and caring. 425 00:21:02,261 --> 00:21:04,124 Of course I'd fall in love with you. 426 00:21:04,124 --> 00:21:05,954 I was lonely. 427 00:21:05,954 --> 00:21:07,369 You lied to me. 428 00:21:08,922 --> 00:21:10,441 Yes. 429 00:21:10,441 --> 00:21:12,201 I prayed. 430 00:21:12,201 --> 00:21:13,858 I prayed every single day, 431 00:21:13,858 --> 00:21:16,585 and every night for that life, 432 00:21:16,585 --> 00:21:19,416 that soul that you terminated. 433 00:21:19,416 --> 00:21:20,279 11 years. 434 00:21:23,005 --> 00:21:27,251 I've been doing penance for a mistake for 11 years. 435 00:21:27,251 --> 00:21:29,149 It was my sin. 436 00:21:29,149 --> 00:21:31,220 I didn't even commit that sin. 437 00:21:31,220 --> 00:21:34,154 My only sin was lying to you. 438 00:21:34,154 --> 00:21:37,744 No, your only sin was not lying. 439 00:21:37,744 --> 00:21:41,058 You deprived your child of a father. 440 00:21:41,058 --> 00:21:43,302 Took away my chance at being happy. 441 00:21:43,302 --> 00:21:46,339 I gave you your chance to be happy. 442 00:21:47,582 --> 00:21:49,480 You know, I thought about trapping you. 443 00:21:49,480 --> 00:21:51,171 Marrying you. 444 00:21:51,171 --> 00:21:52,380 You were just the sort of boy to do it, 445 00:21:52,380 --> 00:21:53,726 just to be nice. 446 00:21:54,589 --> 00:21:55,969 So? 447 00:21:55,969 --> 00:21:57,281 Why didn't you? 448 00:21:57,281 --> 00:22:00,215 Because I deserve more than nice. 449 00:22:01,975 --> 00:22:04,081 I wanted to try, 450 00:22:04,081 --> 00:22:05,876 but you got accepted into the seminary, 451 00:22:05,876 --> 00:22:08,223 and you seemed pretty convinced. 452 00:22:08,223 --> 00:22:11,502 I was gonna have the abortion, 453 00:22:11,502 --> 00:22:12,331 but when, 454 00:22:13,332 --> 00:22:14,402 when I got to my uncle's place, 455 00:22:14,402 --> 00:22:16,127 I knew I wouldn't do it. 456 00:22:16,127 --> 00:22:17,197 You should've told me. 457 00:22:17,197 --> 00:22:18,406 No. 458 00:22:18,406 --> 00:22:22,582 You were pretty content to never see me again. 459 00:22:22,582 --> 00:22:25,999 Honestly, if she weren't asking about you every damn day, 460 00:22:25,999 --> 00:22:28,347 I'd be content to never see you again either. 461 00:22:28,347 --> 00:22:29,624 But here we are. 462 00:22:29,624 --> 00:22:31,315 What were you hoping for? 463 00:22:31,315 --> 00:22:35,181 What were you hoping that I was gonna be able to do? 464 00:22:35,181 --> 00:22:36,941 She lacks a father. 465 00:22:39,427 --> 00:22:41,808 I thought maybe you could be her priest. 466 00:22:41,808 --> 00:22:45,640 At least then she could still call you Father. 467 00:24:59,118 --> 00:25:00,706 Next time on Forgive Me. 468 00:25:00,706 --> 00:25:02,880 Coming in here, I thought I would feel condemned. 469 00:25:02,880 --> 00:25:04,364 This is where you come to get uncondemned. 470 00:25:04,364 --> 00:25:06,194 You shouldn't even be having sex. 471 00:25:06,194 --> 00:25:08,127 How do you think I got to be your grandmother? 472 00:25:08,127 --> 00:25:09,611 You got some girl knocked up, 473 00:25:09,611 --> 00:25:11,440 that you didn't even know well enough to know that 474 00:25:11,440 --> 00:25:13,028 she was knocked up.